On days you wake up not entirely low or high; Just there, you start thinking about what your purpose in life is. Then you suddenly realize......"I don't know, i really don't know why I'm awake"! You contemplate going back to bed; but that's not working. Then some maniac thoughts creep in and you quickly brush them off and scream out loud into the thin air " I'm grateful to be alive; for where there is life, there is hope"!
You are your wits end and honestly have no desire to try anything. Deep into all of these; you stumble upon a picture that reads:
" you don't always need a plan. Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go and see what happens."
So spot on!!!! That's it. That's what I'm going to do. Sit back, relax and watch God work!!!! (Paraphrased). Yeah, yeah, easier said than done! Well....I have good news brethren. Check this out.
“In the same way the Spirit also comes to help us, weak as we are. For we do not know how we ought to pray; the Spirit himself pleads with God for us in groans that words cannot express. And God, who sees into our hearts, knows what the thought of the Spirit is; because the Spirit pleads with God on behalf of his people and in accordance with his will.”
Romans 8:26-27 GNTD http://bible.com/69/rom.8.26-27.gntd
When all else fails and you don't know how to begin the prayer or can't seem to find the voice to pray, just ask for help. Help from the holyspirit. If you are baptized in the holy ghost and can speak in tongues, do so. Maybe you are too drained/weary to do so, simply repeat this as many times as you can "Holyspirit, please, help me, pray for me". I hope this realization gives you as much joy as it gave me.
Here's a song to enjoy while sitting back!!! :) "All consuming fire" by Jesus Culture. As always sing along with meaning.
I wake up not knowing what to do today
But I wake up with a knowing....
I'm made for greatness,
There's so much I have bottled up
I see life through so many different eyes
It's hard to maintain eye contact
There's a constant struggle within me
More like, there's a war within me
I'm trying to separate these thoughts, things I see
Give them form....
It's harder than I thought
I don't know which to let out first....
Maybe I'll just let it out anyhow
And hope it makes a little sense!!!!
Sometimes, I have things to say but don't know how, other times, I have nothing to say. No matter the situation or the 'time', one thing remains, I need God.....I always will. He's my everything and He just makes all things/situations clearer and better.....somehow. I really don't know how He does it, but then again, I guess that's what makes Him God.
Enjoy this beautiful song by hillsong, "all I need is you". Be blessed as you sing along with meaning and a deep sense of longing for God.
So, I've been down this road before,
Yes, this street is familiar
How, oh how did I ever find myself back here?
The last time I was on this very lane
I prayed desperately to never come back
So why, oh why am I here again
I don't need this.........again
I can't deal
I used up all my strength the last time
Could it be that I missed out on learning something then?
Help me see what I need to see...
Gain the wisdom I am destined to gain from this,
Dear Lord I pray.....so that I'll never wander down this lane
Ever again!
This has to be it Lord!
Please help me see through your eyes....
There are sometimes we find ourselves back to some place we once prayed desperately to get out of. We just don't get it. The battle is supposed to be over. What could have brought us back here. Well...a wise person once told me if I ever found myself in a situation like this, then it means I have forsaken God and He's trying to get my attention or I forgot to learn the most valuable thing on this not so new battle field. In other words, we only repeat a lesson if we fail a test/exam. God being His merciful self, is a God of a second chance. Some of us, He knows, can't handle failure.
If you can relate to this, hang in there......pray to learn what you missed the last time, ask to know God's heart. Pretty hard and frustrating. But it's all the choice you have. Either this or you drown in depression. Here's a beautiful song by bethel music - "closer". As always I implore you to not just enjoy the rhythm but sing along with purpose.
It's funny how times have changed. Life is easier in this era. Don't you think? From traveling by trekking for days to traveling by air. From writing letters and waiting for days, maybe months to have it get to its destination and then get a response, to calling people miles away and getting a response from them in minutes. The world as they say is a global village. Lovely! I dare say with the technological advancements these days, we'll soon be able to share food via email. Hehe.
Okay enough about this, to the point of the day. Remember those days when a groom had to prove that he met his new bride undefiled by displaying a white cloth with blood stains. A little too public for private people like me though. Thank God I wasn't born in that era. *phew*
After a while, this became archaic, don't know if it is still practiced in some places. But I do know this practice at some point was exclusive to royalty. No prince/king is expected to make a 'defiled' lady his wife. She just wasn't fit to be a princess. Interesting, right? Unfair, maybe?
Fast forward years down the line. The age of renaissance. Trust me, I can't explain how things changed or anything. But I'm sure you'll agree with me that things have changed. First, it was a taboo to have sex before marriage, then it became odd for you to be in a relationship and not explore that area. "I mean who does that, you guys are an item now, he/she might get bored with you if you don't give him/her sex". LIES!! Slow and steady exploring sex outside marriage became acceptable, so long as you were loyal to just one sex partner. Hmmm....the odd ones out were no longer only virgins, but also ladies/guys who were sleeping with more than one partner. That was just not right..... Until we developed a little further and the only odd ones out now are virgins. "Girl/guy, you have to explore, have a taste of something different before you get stuck with one person forever". You hear things like "you mean, you plan on ending up with this guy/girl and you haven't done it yet? Jeez, what if you find out you guys are not sexually compatible after marriage? Ahh, you are on you own oo. This is a life time of horrible sex we are talking about here!!" Yada......yada.
And this is how, the pressures of the world has pushed the pride of virginity into extinction. Not like I think ladies/guys that marry as virgins should get awards or anything..... Well..maybe they should. But at least give them some credit. In this time and age, its not easy o.
That said, I'm a proponent of staying a virgin till you get married. Why? Because God says our bodies are His temple. Because I just don't think God will be happy that I'm sharing His temple with different people outside the institution He created for it. Because, I think sex is too deep an act to be done at random. Because, I'm royalty and would like to continue as one. I could go on. But, I'll stop here for now.
So, If you are out there reading this and have had so many sex escapades you lost count. That's okay. God doesn't love you any less. And its never too late to try celibacy. Hold out for that someone special God has prepared for you. You can do it. Trust me. If you are reading this and you are getting weary of holding on for that someone special, the pressures of life are getting to you...you are thinking, "what's the big deal? It's just sex, it'll spice up my life, everybody's doing it anyways!" TA!! Snap out of it, you have come too far from where you started. Don't give in. Not to sound like a broken record, but it's true, whoever sincerely loves you, will be willing to wait for you.
If you are a guy and you are reading this, err.....I don't know what you are thinking. If you are perhaps waiting for the right time as well...I applaud you and charge you to hold on. God is smiling down at you.
If you are reading this and wondering when the right time is, hear this, (or as the case may be, read this) the only right time there ever will be is when you are married. Not when you are 12, 14 or 18, 21....nope. Sex doesn't come with an age tag. So long as you are willing to please God. Wait till you are married. Its part of what He created it for. Ask Him.
And finally, if you are reading this and you are like bleh....bleh.....I'll like to hear from you. Drop a comment please.
After all has been said, let me just drop these scriptures here;
1 Corinthians 6:18-20
Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.
Exodus 22:16-17
“If a man seduces a virgin who is not betrothed and lies with her, he shall give the bride-price for her and make her his wife. If her father utterly refuses to give her to him, he shall pay money equal to the bride-price for virgins.
No matter what happens around you, no matter what I write or you hear and see......let your focus be on God....Let His song be the song you sing and you'll be just fine. Enjoy this beautiful song by 'about a mile' - satisfied.
